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Hey guys, Kiki/Mish here. As my title states, I wanted to get some things off my chest.

All of it regarding to Sally and just Creepypasta in general, I suppose.

First thing first.
I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry for how I've acted in the past regarding anything to do with Sally and the bullshit around the ships. I know people don't like Sally anymore BECAUSE of the ships, but! I will say this. Just because I accept someone's personal ship that just so happens to do with Sally, doesn't mean you should dislike her for it. And just because I accept someone's personal ship doesn't mean she's a 'slut' or a 'whore' for being shipped with more than one person. In reality I only like two ships having to do with her, and that's  BENSally and JeffSally. I know I've listed tons of ships from the past but, that was in the past. When it boils down to it, I really only like her with BEN or Jeff. And I shouldn't be chastised for liking or even loving something.

As for the NSFW content I have drawn of Sally, I am sorry for that as well. I'm sorry for being so negative towards those who tried talking some sense into me because of it, I know you guys were only trying to help me, but because of my past living environment, I retaliated out of pined up anger and let it out on those I felt were threatening me. And that wasn't right, at all. And I deeply and sincerely apologize for that. I've deleted my NSFW content on my tumblr, and any 'offensive' piece here on my deviantART. I figured it was only fair. And as much as I want everyone who made a just as equally negative video on me over on YouTube to remove it, I know that's impossible. But hey, at least I'm trying to make some type of amends and trying to put an end to this pointless drama and hatred that was made over a mistake I've made.

I know some people won't believe me on this, and that's okay. And I know some people won't believe me when I say why I was so negative towards everyone.

On September of 2015 my father tried killing my mother in front of me and my youngest brother by strangling her. I fractured my hand in three places trying to get him off, and it took my younger brother hitting him over the head seven to eight times with a practice wooden katana sword to get him off. He was drunk of course. After that event I had to help take care of my mother till she was out of shock. She had nightmares for months, certain things triggered her into terrible panic attacks. We went to the police three days after the event, I was smart enough to take pictures right after the attack and showed it to the officer. After they took our report, the state of Colorado literally had to move us back here to Texas for our own safety. Two protection orders are on my stepfather because he broke the first one from stalking us till we left the state. My stepfather has been an alcoholic his whole life, things only started escalating in 2010. I've lost lots of friends because of him, and like I stated above, released my pined up anger on those who didn't deserve it. But! My mother and brothers are doing 100% better now that we've been through some therapy and broke out of our survival mode that we lived in for years.

I know I didn't need to tell you guys that, but again, I wanted to get shit off my chest. I know a lot of people are going to think I'm using that as an excuse, but it isn't. It's just sad to see people judge others without knowing them or knowing what they've been through. I've read some pretty horrible things people have said towards me, but hey. That's their deal and not mine.

So from here on out, I'm going to try and not be so defensive. If anything I'll be ignoring anyone negative. And trust me, there's a difference between someone trying to help than someone being downright rude.

Anyways, I think this journal has gone on long enough. Again I'm really sorry for my past actions, and I hope you guys can forgive me. I'm just sick and tired of all this drama that's been going through the Creepypasta fandom, and I know I didn't help any with my past actions, but I'm only human, we make mistakes and learn from them. And if no one believes me in me saying sorry, that's cool. They can believe whatever they want. But I really am, and I hope everyone can move past that bullshit and move forward. Cause I am.

Thanks for reading guys, hope you have a great day! :,D  
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CLAnemone Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2017  Student Digital Artist
It's alright. As long as you apologise and are sincere about it, I'm sure everyone will forgive you. uvu
BlueSilverPandas Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Shilo, I'm so sorry to hear about everything that's been going on with you and your family. None of you should have to go through that, and I'm glad to hear that things are getting better for you all. I've been following you for a long time now, and you have always been and continue to be one of my biggest inspirations. I used to be a lot more nervous about posting OCs or OC/Canon pairings, but seeing you do it has helped me to be more confident in my abilities and grow as an artist. Even though I'm not a part of the Creepypasta fandom, I think Sally is a great character and you've done a great job with her. Therefore, I think you have every right to do as you please with her, but whatever you do, you have my full support :heart:

I hope things get better for you and your family and my inbox is always open if you ever need to talk :huggle:
Girl! You went through all that yet still drew that picture for me?! You are a SUPERHERO! I'm so proud of you for standing up to your waste of a father and I'm glad you and your family are now ok. I know a thing or two about bad familial blood (my birth father is a criminal and I'm the black sheep for being born out of wedlock), and don't you ever dare apologize for defending your rights to the fandom. No offence to Creepypasta, but WTNV, and Transformers can be prett-y sick when it wants to be. In fact all fandoms do get that way.

Thank you again for the picture of Stormy and Quiaux last December. Because of that photo I was able to get close to my best friend, and we're now dating :) I'm in a happy relationship! I know you probably will never reply, you're being swarmed with support. Goes to show that you are appreciated by your fans and defended from the haters.

Signed Author Raven Hill aka a girl who was told it was stupid to make a Naruto/X-men rp into a novel but thanks to you, I did it ;)
13thefreerunner Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2016
When things get fandoms everything goes weird so in all fairness after what you've written you are well on your to forgiveness and I'm proud that you've understood your wrongdoings and admitted to them even I seem to find admitting to stuff I did quite daunting so I'm actually proud of that. Well done
lemur97 Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I've been a long time fan of yours and I genuinely feel ashamed for never assuming things were going on in your personal life that would make you act the way you did. When I read this, I realized that perhaps shipping might actually be your escape and your coping mechanism and for people to criticize or flat out insult it would naturally make you upset and retaliate. I relate to that on many, many levels.

Be proud of yourself for making this journal! :hug:
Midnight2015 Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016
Wow....that is heavy. But I can relate- and tbh people just need to stop causing drama when it comes to ocs and shit like that. 
Geshtro Featured By Owner Edited Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist

None of it was anger. None of it was wrong or offensive. These people wanted to see you fall, and now you've given it to them.....
La-Mishi-Mish Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Eh, just didn't feel right without me giving an honest apology. I didn't 'fall' in anything, just tired of pointless drama. And if no one will be the bigger person and say sorry first, then why not me? :/
Geshtro Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Apologize for what?! Doing what YOU wanted with YOUR character? YOUR Story? Look, if you think this will stop the drama... I know from experience that it's only gonna get worse. You can't control what others do, but you can control yourself. And really, BlackMambaZANE is right.

"because I have to deal with daily dumb comments and etc. and idk seeing how you just simply didn't care at all what they said and kept doing what you wanted to do made it clear to me that it's not worth my energy to care about what they say about me and ahh ;;
Like , you 'taught' me to not care about the haters and do what I love and I'm just thankful for that"

THIS was the right response. IGNORING THEM...
Geshtro Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I know I've just about spammed you in now both DA and Skype over this, so I'll just stop now.... I just can't stand seeing this shit.. People getting beaten down and hurt because other's don't have the ability to just STOP....
La-Mishi-Mish Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Haha it's alright, I'm glad to see how much you care, honestly. The world is just a sad place right now. Especially on the internet. One can only hope that one day some people will realize the damage they're doing and like you said, stop. Just funny when they think they're helping when really they're doing the complete opposite. But again I thank you for your support and concern. :hug:
BlackMambaZANE Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
Wow I'm terribly sorry you had to go through something so awful in your past :(
I hope you and your family stay safe , and about that drama, I honestly gotta tell you that you always somehow gave me a bit more of confidence , because I have to deal with daily dumb comments and etc. and idk seeing how you just simply didn't care at all what they said and kept doing what you wanted to do made it clear to me that it's not worth my energy to care about what they say about me and ahh ;;
Like , you 'taught' me to not care about the haters and do what I love and I'm just thankful for that :hug:
Stay awesome!
Animeria Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016
I'm very sorry your going through this...but I enjoy seeing Sally, and she is a wonderful character you made.  Yet I do hope things will be better for you :cling:
zeepaarden Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I ignore the ships, I'm not even a shipper. I only ship canon things and even then I don't ship. 
Archangel537 Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Ok..... Wait, people are still bitching bout sally... I must be under a rock
La-Mishi-Mish Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Im not sure if people are or not, but I still wanted to get this off my chest.
MeumixTheKitty Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist
Sally is still the best :)
musicdrawing4ever Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I love Sally even all the hate she gets!
And I'm sorry to hear that happened..//hugs//
ScaringSaige Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Student General Artist
Sally is amazing and ships are ships and I'm so sorry about that and we'll always love you don't worry and It's totally fine, who can blame you well I'm glad and I'm glad that your better now <3
Keep up the good workHug 
123darkelf Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016
Jesus. I knew the drama with the shipping but...jesus...sorry to hear but at least things are better..I hope.
AceLions Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I still love Sally & Play with me is still my favorite Creepypasta. People get way to defensive about Ships & act as if they are canon. I know what it is like to hold pent up emotions. I'm hardly one to come to others when things are bothering me & i never even let myself feel sadness. When someone I love passes away i always tell myself "Death is a matter of when not if" & force my self not to feel anything until I explode. Blowing up happens to the nicest of people if they wont or don't know how to deal with what they are feeling. I'm glad you are your family are somewhere where you can feel safe. You have always been very friendly to me even when i did have some criticisms. 
frostthecat01 Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016
Mishi, i really see why. I know that people will not harm other people unless given a reason. You never ment to get so upset and make an outburst. Trust me, i had my moments too. I too have yelled and screamed,making people uncomfortable, and in return,making me feel terrible.

But one thing that i love to do when i need a calming way to settle down...Roleplay. Whenever i rp when upset, i always ask the other person for a cheery a teaparty or shipping fluff, and it creates escapism for me. and yes, while Creepypasta fans can get a little bit carried away with Lemons and such, there are more fans out there who want to make everyone feel equal and happy.

And if it make your feel any better, i personally am a fan of yours and i honestly love Sally's shipping. Though,granted her normal young version should stay out of Jeff and Ben's pants untill she's an adult, i do see why and how she loves those boys. I am also sometimes worried my creepypasta character would never live up to Sally's image. Sally is now a reconized character in the Creepypasta fandom, while my character Gareth still needs to have a better story cause litterally, no one views her.

Even at your lowest points, please know that for every 1 bad commet, there are 100 good comments. you should never have your day spoiled by a single negative. and if you ever want, perhaps we could talk privetly and possibly Rp.
N30N-T3CH Featured By Owner Edited Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Kiki, its alright.
I dont mind anything.
I actually liked your NFSW since I've drawn some slight ones (bras and underwear only), in the past. 
Plus! Sally is AWESOME
I'm sorry about what you, your mother, and lil bro had to go through.
I prey that your all safe!
I've learned to move on since my parents told me its life.
Hope you have a good one!!! :3
TymanTy353 Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016
Hey there I'm sorry to hear that. I hope things are better now. I wish you the best :) :hug:
GrimtalesRachel Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016
I'm so sorry this all happened to you, stay strong.
Idk what's going on with Sally, but she is your character, you can do whatever you want with her. I like her :)
MrsScarletAkatsuki Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Student Artist
I'm very sorry to hear what you're going through. We all have stuff that puts so much stress and fear on us that all we know is to shut others out.
Don't listen to other people about Sally, she's a great and unique character! Just you wait, things will get so much better in the future.
CreepyPastaGurl1025 Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I like the Sally character 1. She's adorable

2. She's cool


1. Drama due to ships.
La-Mishi-Mish Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm glad to hear you like her, and I agree on the drama part lol.
CreepyPastaGurl1025 Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yeah. You're welcome
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